…will I go to the place I have so long said I would never go?
I have long romanticized moving to another country and culture and have heard the joys and hardships of living overseas from friends living in hard circumstances. I know it is not as glamorous as some make it out to be. Mundane life seems to happen, wherever you live! Having grown up in a culture where I could take 45 minute showers, turn on the tap when I was thirsty or needed to wash my hands, having indoor plumbing and never having had to use an outhouse except when ‘roughing it’ camping, on purpose, I can only imagine that at some point, it would get old not having it. It would wear on the patience and my humanness would want to cry out for a faucet and toilet in the house that worked when I wanted it to!
Here is the thing about Alaska that I have always struggled through… I get lonely. I get depressed in the Winter and Spring, for me, is like a new lease on life, every year! So, in my mind, I worry about if I will be okay. I won’t have the daily dose of vitamin D that some who live in sunny areas have to keep moods up. My vitamin D3 will come in a bottle.
But if you remember from the last post, this is the very mindset I am fighting. This life is not about me and I don’t want it to be. I want to rely on God, every day, and do what I am on this Earth to do, no matter where I am. Even the last place I ever imagined I would go. The last place I ever thought I wanted to go.
I feel like I should also say that we visited Alaska last week to check out a job opportunity and I was blown away by how wonderful it is in Alaska. The people are some of the kindest, most generous people. The community mindset is inspiring. The beauty of the area is quite extraordinary. So, had I unfairly judged Alaska based on my suppositions and judgments? Yes. I did. But I am still terrified.
This job will require Mike to travel regularly, providing relief work in the village clinics. This means it will be the kids and me for up to six months a year. And Cleo, our 125lb mastiff that does not like the cold. I learned to drive in Arizona. I grew up in Michigan, so I am familiar with cold and snow, and lived in Pennsylvania, so I have driven in some snow as an adult, but…this is Alaska!
This is good, facing my fears and reservations. It is good to look at my husband, in all of his gifting, and know that he will be in his glory working in these remote areas! He is so good at what he does. He is so modest, but truly, I marvel at what God has brought us through so that he can do what he does. He does it so well and he knows that it is all because of God.
So, we will offer our crazy lives, going to the snow and Alaskan beauty, and give of ourselves.
One of my favorite quotes of all time is by Warren Wiersbe. “Love is the giving of oneself for the benefit of others based upon the understanding of how valuable people are.”
So, Alaska, we are coming to love you. Whether you know it or not…